I’ve been timidly dipping my toes into using this platform, then reflexively pulling away out of a feeling of unsureness. Unsure-ity? Not being sure. Sure, that works but I’m sure there’s a better word to be used. Whatever.
Anyway, I’m ready to just give the world my stream of consciousness and stop with all this lack of conviction. Back and forth I go in my personal life trying to push my full weight and effort behind the perfect way to apply my skills and abilities.
See, I’m looking to build an empire. Now I know that may sound crazy/cliche, but that is my goal. Being an average person and just accepting my lot in life has never sat well with me. There is just an overflowing amount of potential inside of me that rushes forth in glimpses and flashes of amazingness.
Lately however, something has been happening to me that can no longer be contained:
I am actually ready to take the necessary steps and make the sacrifices needed to be what I believe is my true self: A legend that will never die. I am aiming to have my name live on through history.
I’m not clear on what I believe happens after we die, but it’s obvious that the Greats who have come and gone in the past, are still very much alive today. Albert Einstein will never die. Steve Jobs will go on forever. Stan Lee will never be forgotten. This is my goal.
Through listening to a ton of motivational videos and reformatting my belief systems and inner conversations, the light is beginning to shine through the clouds of my previous ways of thinking.
This takes absurd amounts of dedication and perseverance that just won’t quit. No matter the circumstances I’m faced with, I must push forward toward my ultimate goal. Always.
That goal I set before me, is to successfully dominate every single area of my life. This means financially, inter-personally, organizationally, spiritually, physically, and artistically. It seems like I may be severely lacking in most of these areas at the moment.
I’m writing this to clarify the swirling chaos in my head. Direction and clear goals are desperately needed to get going on this path to my true self.
Each of us has a purpose on this Earth. Sadly, the vast majority of us never manifest that purpose into tangible reality. We may all know what we would like to do with our lives, but have no reasonable expectation within ourselves of actually making it happen.
I remember when I was a teenager I listened to rap primarily. I began making beats and writing rhymes for fun and realized I was actually good at it. Nowadays, on the rare occasion that I do it, I still am. But I used to feel like the chances of me being successful at it were so unlikely that it wasn’t worth pursuing in any serious capacity.
That was before the days of YouTube and SoundCloud. Thankfully, we are fortunate that today, it’s commonplace to broadcast ourselves and get noticed for our talents.
Now, had I stuck with it when I started at age 17, I believe that by now I could have a large body of work behind me with multiple albums and a strong following. Probably not big and famous, but at least underground, paying the bills kind of money.
But who knows, I could have been something like a phenomenon. There is just no telling.
Clearly, Wayne Gretzky’s quote that “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” is where I’m going with this story here. My main point is, I’m done letting these fears and doubts and need for perfection stop me from producing.
I’m starting here and now. I’m going to share my experiences, struggles and breakthroughs here on Medium with those of you who care to join me for the ride. Hopefully this will inspire some of you who are on a similar journey. Let’s hold each other accountable from this day forth. No more excuses! Time. To. DO.
I know I need to “journal”, so why not just go way out on a limb and tell everyone how I feel?
This is me stumbling out into the sunshine, all squinty-eyed and morning-haired, pushing myself to do what needs to be done. The struggle is real, but it’s the only way to dig yourself out of a hole. Though I’ve done decently for myself in life, I’m also ashamed at how much time I’ve wasted justifying my average behavior. If I truly want to be a legend, then I can no longer conduct myself in an average way.
Legends don’t sleep till noon. They don’t set out on a task then quit when it gets difficult. They do what they say they’ll do and push aside all other factors. They don’t get swayed by their emotions or let their feelings dictate their actions. They keep their goals clear in their minds and refuse to settle for anything but completion and progress toward those goals. They push themselves beyond what they thought was possible and reach new plateaus that serve as a launch point to the next objective. Each time they get stronger as they move towards Greatness.
I feel like I’m struggling out of a cocoon, tearing myself free of the confines of an egg, shedding my old, useless skin, and growing new limbs as I evolve into what I envision myself to be. I feel better and more focused already now that this is out of my head.
Thanks for listening…with your eyes :)